i think i’m having this realization about myself that i’ve internalized a very ideal & unrealistic version of belonging that does not actually exist. like i could really belong in a group of people, and still somehow i’d convince myself that i’m an outlier. maybe it’s years of introversion, but anyone who’s gone through the introvert to extrovert/introvert to a little less introverted pipeline knows it’s a weird fucking feeling to mesh w people but have your mind trick you into thinking you don’t
